Journal Journey of Life

Dear Kana, This is my personal note; a reminder, for your future self. Have lots of confident. With confidence, you can go anywhere and accomplish anything. Be brave and honest. Respect other people. Respect their thought, their virtues, even their flaws. Treat people the way you want to be treated. Remember, good karma is exist. Think creative. Embrace art. Fall in love with music. Dance, or sing. Make craft. Read a lot, write a lot. Get in touch with nature. Love this country, see the beauty. You come from two different backgrounds so enrich yourself with cultures and traditions. Manage your finance. Don't spend too much on materials. Go travel, widen your horizons, increase your knowledge. Surround yourself with great friends, those who encourage and inspire you. Be the joy to people through your sincere smile, your kind acts, and your sense of humor. Dear Kana, There will be moments where your self esteem suddenly drops, people break their promises and  ...

Dulu kalo baca-baca cerita melahirkan, suka ngilu dan keder sendiri. Kayaknya horor banget gitu. Sakitnya, jeritannya, robeknya, duh.. Herannya, begitu hamil, bukannya gentar saya justru membulatkan tekad untuk bisa lahiran normal. Gak tau apa motivasinya, pokoknya mau melahirkan tanpa operasi. Saya mau, ngerasain 'kenikmatan' proses partus alami. Masalahnya, minus mata saya tinggi. Tapi saya pantang mundur. Berbekal surat rekomendasi dari obgyn, saya mendatangi dokter spesialis mata untuk memeriksa kondisi retina saya. Konon, wanita ber-minus tinggi bisa-bisa aja melahirkan normal asal retina tidak tipis. Kalau retina tipis, risiko retina robek karena proses mengejan saat melahirkan itu sangat besar. Akibatnya, bisa terjadi kebutaan. Solusi lain, mata harus di-laser supaya kondisinya prima kembali. Saya buang jauh-jauh perasaan takut itu dan meyakinkan diri sendiri (dan suami, tentunya) kalau, "niat baik pasti ada jalannya." Dokter mata meneteskan cairan k...